13thSept'08 WITNESSED DELHI BLAST C.P

It was a saturday afternoon. I was with my sister at V3S mall buying a jeans for myself. For the later day i had a plan to attend BIGUL'S meeting at 5:30p.m. at Central Park. BIGUL is a group of people from different fields of arts who work with youth for personal development as wel as development of the society. Usually our meetings take place at someones house.It was the first time that we decided to decentralise our meeting place.

I left my sister at the mall and left for central park. When i reached there i didnt find any one there and just few minutes before my prepaid balance gave up.So i had no option except to take a round of central park to find my frieds. Luckily the blast didnt took place before as i was near that dustbin only. Anyhow i met one of them and in another half and hour we had a group of 10 people talking on future plans. I was a bit lazy when the talking part was going on.The group was in a cirlce but my laziness made me sit at a position from where most of the sides were visible.

The topic going on in the group was regarding the core and also that next meeting should be kept at India Gate as we will get fresh ideas at open places like this. I still remember the sounds of the chai wala from whom we bought tea, a group of boys who were playing guitar and cause of whom i felt entertained while waiting, small muslim children who were playing with a cosco ball and also a number of couples who were there to hang around. While the site scene was so lively and harmonious we heard a loud sound of a blast from the right. It was a blast but we were unsure that a tyre got burst or its a gunfire or actual blast.

With that sound i saw a group of pegions flying together in one direction and the words came out of my mouth were " What a beautiful blast" as i found the pegions so beautiful.Till the time i could finish my sentence i saw some pegions falling down and a huge cloud of black smoke formed in the air...It was so high as if some building has caught fire and flames touching the clouds. It all happened in a fraction of seconds and this all as if a strem of consciousness.

While we were looking at our right n someone from us said 'ye jo bhi tha bohot achcha tha ' we heard another very very ...very loud noise of a blast.This time some heat was also there as if something hot is around us.In addition to this there was a vibration in the body,floor and surrounding which was like an earthquake for a second.This vibration made all of us stand immediately.We all were looking at each other as if we were numb and sense less.

During the time period so many thoughts were running into our minds.The first blast was hardly whereas the second blast made us realise that its a serial blast and today we will be running against time and our luck.It was like "paron ke neeche se zameen nikalna." My parents were out of the station and the first person who came in my mind was my sister.Luckily one of my friend called me up generally and i told him in a husky voice what all has happened and also that right now let me go to a safe place then we can talk.At that moment a simple call made the panic situation easier for me.

I saw media people runnining all over with camera and camera stands in hands. Security people asked us to vacate the place.At that time we felt security to b fool as for us the place was safe. We survived there so we felt or assumed it to be safe.But they forced us to leave. We were doubtful of our next steps.

Still we conitued walking.As we were out i saw ambulance,police,firebrigadeetc all around. I was in my senses and i took my camera to capture the restless croud. My hands were shivering as i was taking the first pic after the incident. My mind said have you lost it or what? No humanitty left but other mind said you are going to be future journalist or media person. Communicate the reality and speak up your mind.

And i clicked some of the pics that depict reality. We decided to take an auto but were sure if it will be safe or not. Suddenly i recalled that i had asked someone to meet us at7 and at that it was 5 bto seven. I got a call from that person saying dont come to cp he saw blasts...i replied even i did. He asked me to move to nsd and that we'l meet there.

We took the silent unknown road from the back of intercontinental and came towards bengali market when i got a message from the same person that "plz dont go to mandi house 2 bombs found there"But it was late we were there at mandi house and there was nothing like bomb detection thing there. It was a rumour even that was very scary. While coming back only 1 thing was in my mind and i told it to my friends even. I wanted to stay there. Not to click more pics but cause of role reversal. A feeling of being in place of those who were injured even i would have expected safe and common people to be there for help.

Not only me try to keep yourself at such a situation where you are in need YOU'L EXPECT COMMON PEOPLE TO COME UP...and what were we doing running for survival. But at such time survival comes first a friend of mine suggested. I xcame back though didnt want to. For family and friends.I had to come back.We reached NSD (National school of drama) and it was like entire school was out to know how we reached.

I waited for my sister to be there to pick me up.She came and hugged me.Then i felt am alive and what it means to others.Friends were continuously calling up to know how am i. At that moment phones were coming not reachable.There was a problem in connectivity.

I asked my friends to stay at my place and got a friend home(priyanka di..those who know) Sukriti for those who know my junior faced everything so bravely,her father came to pick her up.Kunal sir( my mubole father lolz n teacher) and keshav sir with one more came at my place for dinner.

At home we saw the news and then realise we have escaped such a trauma. We were so proud of ourselves that we got successful in bringing all of us out safely from that place. Our another friend was in shock and it took her entire day to calm down.Being aethist i thank my parents for making me strong enough to face things bravely.

Am glad am alive and upset for those who could not escape.This incident tells not to waste a single minute of life there is so much to do n so lil time.Do things which make a mark of you in others life(+ve) You yourself donno in how many ways you touch the lives of so many people.

POPINS.....

As we all are familiar with the name popins.... so here i would not like you to go back in the memory and recall those days of popins...but ya here the idea is inspired by those colourful balls only. The difference is am not talking about those sweet toffees but sweet people who made my life colourful.

During our college days we had lots of fun and masti. From burning crackers in the toilets,corridors to make girls marry within the class just before lecturers used to enter and get shocked to see the scenario... (by the way dont take me wrong mine was a girl's college).

Here during the time of being into a process of personal development i came accross a bunch of beautiful people. Those who not only had outer beauty but were great human souls.... am talking about my group of friends namely..Sandeep , Nishi, Kanchan, Sneh ,Rohini and me. We named our group POPINS. Just because we all were always found together and were strengths of one another. Also we brought colours to each others life which i think play a very important role in every ones life.

Life does not work in just 2 shades black or white. I learnt this from these people. each individual was so different from the other yet all came together. This feeling of togetherness was amazing even when we(me and rohini)used to bunk classes Nishi and Sandeep used to arrange notes for us. Kanchan used to be the haryanavi girl in our group so that no 1 mess up with us and Sneh uska size dekh ke people used to stay away automatically. Or jiska benefit hum lete the, coz we were short and thin on an average to others.

The best part was that though we had support from all of them we were very sure that whenever we are into some trouble its possible that the reason could be anyone from us. :)

Sneh used to be our style icon and Kanchan chupa rustam. I still tell her that she has so much to explore and when we'l meet next i'l find her with some positive changes :).
Nishi used to be the encyclopedia and Sandeep the script writer,the reporter and sometimes tha actor among our spoof vedios...lolz. Rohini was named chidiya cause she was always full of so much energy and creativity jise vo underestimate karti thi.(hai actually) .I was the one whom they used to say the sensible one.( now its their fault you see) and the one who's patient though i have changed a bit now.

But this group of popins has inspired me always. I confess that we could not give much time to the group still they didnt miss out a chance when we were together and never complained about it. Finding all the qualities like hardworking,sensible,creative,intellectual,enthusiastic and fun loving people in a group is just a luck. Inspite of all my times this is the one group which satisfies me that honest people are still on this earth and we are one of them.

Love you guys thanx for being there and showing trust on me. Would love to continue troubling you in coming future so be prepared like always.....

Cheers!!!!!!!!!!!

p.s: special comments from the popins members.....(ROCK ON inspired me lolz)
Others too are free to 2 COMMENT..if even u got nostalgic after reading this.You are
free to share your xperiences.

NO SKY IS TOO HIGH TILL THE TIME YOU WANNA FLY!!

This being my first post I would like to start it up with some real life instances which have always inspired me to move on in life . Not any human personality but me, my life, my attitude and its experience are the things which have much value in my life. While writing this i really wish that my experiences will help others too to analyse their life and be proud of it.



I truely believe that man learns from his own mistakes and mistakes can be of any kind. In my life also,at times i do feel that i have done some mistakes which have brought steep turns into my life. Turns or i should say huge difference in my life. But constant learning from these mistakes keep me going on and on and on in life. As a conclusion today i believe that no sky is too high till the time you wanna fly!!!



I remember the first time after school i wanted to be in some very good, popular or u may say north campus college. For the same i appeared for ECA trials (admission through extra curricular activities, in my case dramatics). I remember going to each college and performing my piece and answering their stupid questions(from my point of view not from their point of view) was not an easy job. My search ended at maitreyi college from where i did my graduation but very few people know that before coming to maitreyi i was among the second last finalists at players (kirorimal dramatic society...god for campus theatre people). Like others even i was enthusiastic about the trial rounds. For me being among second last finalists at players was a proud feeling , just before the moment when the last round took place.And all fun moments turned into an incident. It was an improvisation round and though i know i did well in it from my side somewhere i got the hint that it was not up to the mark... and in another few minutes i was told that i was out of the long run. It was difficult for me to cope up with the decision as i knew i was capable of much more but i satisfied myself.I compromised for the very first time in my life. Though actually it was not a compromise but an opportunity knocking at my .But it was my perception to take it as a compromise then.



For another 4 days i was not able to sleep thinking my last impovisation could have been much better and today i am out just because i didnt used my 100% imagination and creativity.



Later when i joined maitreyi i experienced completely different siutation as i was thinking before joining.There i knew most of my seniors even before joining the college just because of dramatics; everyone there was so friendly. I was exploring my new life during the span..my first year went as if i lived my entire life. Everything was so very perfect. I participated in miss english hons and unknowingly turned out to be the winner.Then came miss maitreyi and here again two fun loving friends and future love birds came out with flying colours. Me and my friend rohini who became my lifeline in coming .we were then the runner ups of the Ms. maitreyi crown.



During next two years with the support of friends, family and society members i was able to achieve a place for myself. i became vice president of dramsoc 2006-07 and president 2007-08. bewtween the period of being the president of dramatics club i learnt a lot. My mistakes became my own teacher and i decided to be a good learner. though i tried to do most of the exploration work as the president. wanted to give maximum knowlege and exposure to the team. i believing in myself for the very first time in abhivyakti's history took a risky step. I decided to perform outside delhi without the info to the principal. the name is not mentioned so as to maintain the decorum of d society and the college.For me that was a proud decision i made till date as we won many prizes and reputation there.



But all my strength got misplaced when my own people didnt understand me and took me for granted. at that time their focus of attention was changed they were interested in their fun inspite of me being in trouble. believe me taking a girls group out of station is not an easy job again that too when you move out without permision but i did.



At that time all these decisions, prizes , dramatics were life real thing to me just before these all became barrier for in my future. in final year i put in all my effort into all the things including studies..mind it... but when the result was out i was not able to be at a place where i had seen myself all years along.



I wanted to be in nsd but politics and lack of number of attempts made lolz...stopped me from being there. later i got through jamia mcrc but a here and there in numbers decided my destiny.



I could not join even there. all my hopes seemed to be shattered but so many incidents in my life have now made me strong enough to deal with them. till date the past hurts but i know my capability and hardluck destiny which provokes me to stand high so that the sky dont have any option to be the limit but to raise himself much high...



So believe in urself...destiny can b very harsh but at the end watever happens happens for the best...nothing can be better than that. just wat u need is a high sky and a will to fly high!!