Wanna Be Friends With Time

2009..... this is my last post of the year. Few more hours and we'll enter the brand new year called 2010!!! This year brought me a blend of surprises and shocks. Some experiences and some thoughts. Learnt a lot and did some faults but all of which made me strong...

The year which went was not so cherished one but yet i found my few special moments to call them "memories". I lost my self and found it again. The journey had so many chapters..with each day passing as if i have no tommorows. So much work but so little time. So many friends i made some special but some were for a while . All experiences are worth discussing as the year brought a lot of change in me.

I became more careful in deciding things for myself. I learnt a lot out of my own mistakes . The year went good from professional front. I had few people who guided me, taught me how to face the outer world. I got to know how each individual helps in building you person you are. At times you might fail but you are always remembered for what an person you actually are.

Am glad and thankful for having all those people who were there with me in 2009... for making the year special one with all ups and downs and making me strong to see another sunshine with a lot of confidence, trust and honesty. Thank you people for showing trust in me.

Wishing every one a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

MEMORABLE MEMORIAL ....

Mukesh Arya's Memorial Service is on 27th Nov'09. If you know him please be there by 12:30p.m. at Community Center, Mohan Garden, Uttam Nagar. Turn from Metro Pillar 763.
We are sorry this message is sent to every number stored in Mukesh's phone.

It was 27th Nov'09, I was at a friend's place. Enjoying myself having a blast, partying with my friends. It was my friend's birthday. The music was loud and the gathering was huge.In all this hussle bussle I heard my phone ring and thats when I got this message.

I went numb.I could not hear the music anymore. Didn't know how to react??? He was so close to me. Didnt know what happen? I had a word with him day before yesterday only. In the middle of the croud i stood clueless.

Next thing I did was ran out of the room without informing anybody. I tried calling him on my way but all in vain. I reached Mohan Garden. Got off the car and ran towards the community centre. I opened the door but there was no one in the room. It was little decorated. For a second i thought I entered wrong hall but Then, I saw him walk across the hall. There he was 'MUKESH' right in front of me. On his knees with a ring in his hand. After a lot of kicking and punches I had to say 'yes' to him because the past hour made me realise how important he was to me.

I WILL NEVER BE THE SAME

I loved to be in rain
Now life is in pain
I'll never be the same.

I used to trust you a lot
I trusted my own thought
But you taught me hhow to hate
And I'll never be the same.

Life was fun with you
When you came,life was new
And today its all in Vain
And I'll never be the same.

My life used to have an aim
You left me between the race
Struggle turned into survival
And I'll never be the same.

I used to love my family
You took all of them from me
Now everyone has changed
And I'll never be the same.

You took my life
you left no choice
And today i felt i failed
Coz I'll never be the same.

DIGNITY WAS AT STAKE

A year passed by
Adignity you could not buy
Everything seems fake
And your dignity was at stake.

Coz of just one reason
Hearing people all season
The dream you saw-FAILED
Your dignity was at stake.

Tke it as your defeat
Though your need is not yet complete
You wanna ride back
Having nothing but just FAITH
Your dignity was at stake.

How can you live a life
As a pros who lives in shades
Your life seems to be a shadow
And you standing at a narrow
You cannot make it a bit late
Your dignity was at stake.

WHAT DO I WANT ???

What do I want??? This question came in mind when i saw a shot in a movie THE WOMEN. What is it that i actually want to do? A very simple question that anyone would like to answer for themselves. I actually sat for sometime to think about it and it took me hours and days to answer that to myself. There were so many things i actually wanted to do.


As i have mentioned earlier that i was into theatre big time,even appeared for nsd and was a scholarship holder in theatre for some years, these days i was missing theatre in amity. Its not that people here are not passionate nor that they don't work for theatre but its just that here the way of working was a bit different from what DU theatre has taught me. So first thing that came to mind in want to do list was to again revive what i used to do,i used to enjoy. In between these months i lost myself somewhere...this was the answer i got when i questioned myself. And i decided to start with it again. I therefore decided to just get back to myself. See some theatre as i used to do, work passionately in bigul(our group) so that others feel passionate about it, try out doing some theatre in college just like the way i would like to see theatre being performed.

Next thing that came to my mind was to express myself. And here i am trying to express myself. Yes! i thought of writing up the posts on blog.

Then came friends..with whom we feel free and comfortable. Your energy capsules. Believe me just spent little quality time with your friends and you'l find a great sign of relief. Thats what i experienced.

And then what i learnt very newly...Rule of thumb "Dont think.just do what you want to do" thinking is such a waste of time, if you want to do something then actually go for it. Always believe in yourself. Every failure will turn out to be a success for you.

After questioning myself this simple question i got so many answers. Now again i have a passionate,energetic feeling within me to sing,to,dance,to perform and to revive the time cycle. The answers i was looking for were within myself and i was searching for them in the outer world.

At times its important for you to question yourself and spend time with yourself and things will start falling on place. So " what do you want ?" Just think about it!

Inaugural post...year 2009

Hi...Wishing every one a very Happy New Year and a simple sorry for not writing any post throughout these months. But I have a reason for that i wanted to write something good over here but everytime i used to update my blog something used to be there which used to upset me. Like mumbai blasts, that was a depressing incident within itself. then examz you see another depressing thing occured to me in the meanwhile and then finally new year...so depressing celebration , like watching a movie on computer on 31st dec night can b so exciting you can think of it very well. Anyhow the movie worked for me lolz.... and today finally felt actually happy so thought of continuing the gud work... so keep looking for posts cause i'l try to keep on writing some.

Be happy and enjoy every ting of life thats what i look forward for myself and wish for others too. Keep smiling always and commenting too. ;)